I'll try to make this as short as I can without drip feeding.
DH and I have been separated for 2 years now, we remain very good friends and co parents to 2DC.
We split because his drinking habits had gotten far too much and he refused to try to change it, he was very depressed and self medicating with alcohol. I can be a very highly strung person to live with looking back I realise that I contributed to his behaviour and to the failing of the marriage at the time.
Essentially resentment built until we couldn't live together any more.
Since splitting up he seems to have grown up a lot, and while he still drinks it's not nearly as much as he used to.
I have also grown in that I have relaxed a lot and learned to let go a little with the kids (while we were together I overrode his decisions and didn't trust him to parent them properly) I can now see this and have learned from it, although I would say that sometimes my decisions were because he hadn't thought something through properly.
Sorry if this doesn't make a lot of sense I'm trying to give a full picture without bombarding you with examples.
In the past 2 years he has stayed at my house for Xmas eve etc and we've spent a few family days together for family occasions etc and gotten on very well during these times. We've also gone to a couple of gigs as friends because we both wanted to go and didn't know anyone else that wanted to go.
We also still run a business together although we work independently of each other within that business so don't see each other at work.
Neither of us have moved on with anyone else in this time, I have had one date and very quickly realised that I wasn't ready for it, made my excuses and left.
Lately I have found myself looking forward to seeing him when he's dropping off/picking up DC and I'm wondering if perhaps I should ask if he wants to start dating again just to see how we get on after having that couple of years to grow.
What's stopping me from doing this is that I'm worried about how this may affect the DC should it fall apart again as well as how DH and I would be affected if things went back to the way we were.
If you've read all the way to this point thank you.
WWYD?