Hi,
I was on a dating site for 4-5 yrs and I recently decided to just start dating. I use to chat to guys but then felt scared to meet them. I have a condition which makes it hard to date. So would say this and say sorry don't want to waste your time.
Anyway I met this guy everything changed I deleted the account feel so much better.. Because of another reason too.
I just can't believe when I met him I was so nervous. Not felt like that since a long time. Then met him the other night and things went further between. I was trying to take it slow but stayed with him. Things got a bit messy think he did wrong and so did I by not telling him my condition.
Yesterday we had a good chat he seems understanding. He knows I like him but so scared if I fall for him then feel I be ***. I have held my feelings in. Yes still early and told him this and he said he will take it slow with me.
This morning feeling scared to lose him and that he going to change towards. Although he has not my doubts are scaring me.
We just had a talk about my son which has freaked me out more.
My son don't see his dad and just said he needs a father figure and he worried about him. I told him my son been saying stuff.
So I said I wanted to talk him about that in person.
I like this guy a lot and I think he likes me too. I can see us being together.
I've always said any guy that comes in my life don't expect them to play dad to my son. I just want some to support me.
My son once said to a friend of mine she said something stupid to him. I don't need a new dad I have one already.
Just feel that it's happened so fast and probably worrying over nothing. I'm happy and I am shocked how understanding he is. But I am still holding back being early days.
I'm just like thinking in my heart this seems meant to be. No other guy made me shut the dating site lol. A bit mad how all this has happened.