Hi all, I’m new to this so please bear with me...., I’m 44 and have been married for 17 years. Two weeks ago my husband said he had had enough as we had an argument where I got angry with him and told him not to bother coming home as I was annoyed that he had gone out and couldn’t get hold of him and it was getting into the early hours. He stayed with a friend for 5 nights then came back and said nothing had changed but he wanted to come and help me. I have end stage kidney failure and am waiting to start dialysis so some days I can barely get out of bed, we also have 4 children. Due to depression he has hardly lifted a finger to go out to work and doesn’t seem to understand that we have bills to pay. We jointly made a decision for him to carry on living here but in separate rooms but I am finding it increasingly difficult to even function seeing him every day and desperately wanting everything to go back to normal but he has turned to stone and says there is no chance. I am clinging on to the hope that he will change his mind and am getting increasingly ratty with the children, struggle to eat and just curl into a ball in bed most of the time. How can a man who I adored even consider leaving me and our children when I am feeling so ill? He says he wants to help me but tonight he is staying at his friends again and drinking when he really shouldn’t be as he needs to be on standby should my phone ring to tell me that there is a transplant become available (I’m on the desperate waiting list). I feel so terribly alone. This has literally come out of the blue although my husband says he hasn’t felt happy for a while. Thank you for reading x