Feeling really dishearten and fed up.
I will start of saying I have been suffering from PND and receiving treatment for the last month which had made me feel better and stronger but now it has all come crashing down.
Last night I mentioned to my OH that it upsets me when he talks about his past and uses 'we' referring to him and his ex - as when I talk about my past I say 'I' because I wouldn't want to hurt him or make him feel uncomfortable. He has thrown at me before that he can never remember argument between them and all we do it's argue. Before I even mentioned this I asked for it not to be an argument...
Well he stormed off to bed. Then came down for the big argument , I said I realise you might say it without thinking but it hurts and I would like it to stop. I feel I'm not good enough. Then he goes with the insults 'he can't do anything right' 'he's walking on egg shells' 'I'm a burden to this whole family' 'I'm selfish' 'get a grip' ' I'm crazy' etc.
I let him get it all out then he walked off again. When I went to bed he said do you want to talk and I just said I don't know why you can't just say I'm sorry I didn't realise it belittles you and I'll stop but instead you felt the need to insult me.
With that he stopped talking and walked out this morning ( still yet to return) as I spend the day with DS (8 months)
I feel like after a few weeks of treatment I can see that this wasn't the right reaction from him and I don't think it will change. What has hurt the most was the burden to family comment as if it wasn't for my son I really think I would have done something stupid months ago - something I have spoken to him about.
I just don't know what to do, will it ever change? How do I even leave ? (My house he moved in 2 years ago) I don't know how to approach it without it being an argument or being insulted.
It breaks me because I do love and adore him but I can't see things getting better.