My partner and I had been together for 5 years, our relationship wasn't perfect by any means but we had always loved each other and worked through any issues. He can be a heavy drinker which had always caused arguments (he would go out and say he'd be home at 11 and then not even come home at all because he'd slept at his friends' houses etc. and I'd have to go pick him up in the morning after I'd stopped worrying sick!!).
A couple of months ago, he told me he wasn't happy in the relationship. I love him so much so obviously I was devastated. He wanted to end things but I convinced him to give it another try. He said we will see how it goes and hopefully he will start to feel happier again. So I was putting all of my effort in to be loving and affectionate etc. And he seemed to be happy.
Then when I came home one day he said he wanted me to leave our home to give him some space so that he could think things through. I was heartbroken and I went to stay with a friend for a couple of weeks. He then contacted me saying he's made a horrible mistake and he understands if the answer is no but that he would love me to come back. I had been so heartbroken that I wanted to go back, but told him things would have to change on both of our parts to make it work.
So, I went back, and everything was lovely and great for a couple of weeks. He made so much effort, booking us weekends away and couldn't do enough for me around the house, plus hugs & kisses which were sorely lacking before.
Then, after those initial 2 weeks he went back to making no effort whatsoever and barely even said hello to me when I got in from work at night. I was miserable, crying every night and feeling completely worthless and unloved. I confronted him after a few weeks and he said he doesn't know whether he loves me anymore. I was devastated all over again - I stewed on this for a few days and plucked up the courage to tell him I was leaving as I deserve more than a partner who isn't actually sure whether they love me or not. He didn't fight for me to stay at all, so I left and didn't contact him.
He then contacted me very soon afterwards saying he's made a horrible mistake (again) and that he's so sorry for how he's treated me the past few weeks and that he's ruined his own life by behaving like this towards me. I didn't respond as I was still so hurt but was hoping that over a little more time he would think more clearly and realise he's throwing away someone he loves.
Anyway, a couple of days after these messages, I went to the house while he was out to grab a few things and he has taken down all of our photos from the walls and shoved them in drawers?!
I pictured myself marrying this person and having children with them and it has all come crashing down. Deep down I am still hoping that he will come around and realise he loves me but I feel like I'm being naive. Do you all think that I should just be moving on and forgetting him?
Please be nice! I don't have any friends to discuss this with so I am completely without any advice. I may be being daft but I love this person and we have 5 years behind us but I am finding it difficult to know what I need to do. 