Hi guys... some background info - partner and I been together just over two years, our child is 5 months old. We've been having a tough time of things and decided to have a break from each other (but were still having sex and spending time together with our baby). His ex has always been in the background of our relationship as he claims they're good friends and now I've found out that while I was staying with my mum for a couple of weeks he was seeing her, has had sex with her and she has sent him naked photos of herself. I've also seen a while back that she sent him inappropriate photos of herself while she was pregnant with someone else (has a baby younger than ours but has split from the dad). We talked about it and he assured me that he has now broke it off with her and blocked her on everything as he wants to be with me and our child however I just can't get over it. I could have dealt with the talking and photos but it's the sex that's just made me feel awful, it's like a sinking feeling I can't eat I can't sleep and I just feel so run down and crying all the time, I'm not managing to take my child out of the house as I just can't stop crying all the time. He says he wants to make a go of things but when I try to talk about it he just goes mad and shouts at me. He finds a way to make it my fault like I'm not allowed to have feelings. Has anyone else experienced this and found a way to get over it and continue their relationship? I do want to be with him but it's so heartbreaking and every time we have sex I imagine him with her and also multiple times a day I'm thinking about it like did he kiss her like he kisses me, what position did they do it in etc. He also told me he enjoyed it while we were having an argument about it today and this was awful for me, I've dropped him and our baby off at my mother in laws house and gone home to cry in bed. I feel heartbroken and like I'm a bad parent! He has also told me I'm being an awful mother as i have been out drinking a couple of times since I found out to try and make myself feel better, he claims I have been "dumping the baby on whoever will take her to go and get pissed". 😥 Any advice ?