I had a nasty break up five weeks tomorrow. This time it was different . He completely blocked me on all forms of social media. We were together 2 years and he betrayed my trust. I do believe we had some amazing times together and planned on traveling and we did support each other through some bad times. He did some unforgivable things to me which sent me over the edge and I boiled and it all burst out five weeks ago.
Feeling total regret I have sent several messages pouring my heart out saying where we both went wrong and how I was broken hearted but he completely disregarded my feelings. He sent one message back saying he was getting in touch to put my mind at rest and we were not working and he still loved me but it was no place for a relationship . He also wished me luck and said ‘he would absolutely not be entertaining any other girl’. So I felt like he was working on himself for this time . I was beyond devastated . I did say in one of my messages if he needed space and what he needed but if he went with any other person I couldn’t get back together because it was crush my heart. He’s known how devasted I have been but I limited the contact and gave him what he wanted. Tried to take that as my closure . I reached out and said I wanted to say sorry on everything on my part and he said he wasn’t ready to talk.
Four days later he text me to tell me he had slept wirh someone else and was absolutely gutted and regretted it. The whole situation has made me sick.
He’s known how upset I have been yet he’s blanked me and carried on getting on with things.
Until saturday. He ignored my pleas... yet again and I received voice mails early hours of the morning off him telling me he loves me and cannot get me out of his head .
I note that he had a sh*t time in town drunk and I feel he didn’t pull and so was ringing me after five weeks.
I blocked him on the last form of contact we had (text messages)
And Iv not heard anything from him since Saturday. It has totally messed with my head. Does a drunk mind speak sober thoughts .? Surely he could have reached out if he genuinely loved me? He knows where I live. I’f love was true he wouldn’t have left me how he has. I’m finding it really hard to keep him blocked on text but he’s had me blocked on social media for 5 weeks. Please could someone advise whether he will ever regret his ways. Iv tried so hard and this is hurting . I feel I deserve more and he’s leaving me to move on when Iv done all the fighting I could. I haven’t been with anyone in the break up as I genuinely loved him .
Xx