Addicted to a dickhead

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He's a twat and I don't know if I even like him tbh

But he promised me he wouldn't walk away and what I wanted most in the world

Of course it's bullshit and he will walk away when I stop having sex with him and he keeps playing it like he doesn't want to have sex so can't possibly be using me but keeps tripping up because he just can't say no

I think he is a wanker and I'm definitely being a bitch back. I certainly need to grow the fuck up and cut him out but I'm so damn low and bored and although I know he doesn't actually care, doesn't actually mean any shit he says and we are very stupid as a match... I don't want to let him go.

I've been in abusive relationships and the only man who ever treated me nicely is now in a relationship with someone else. I've done freedom program and I know this guy right now has every red flag out there but I don't want to end it.

Please help me want to go cold turkey. I don't even like myself, I want to hurt him (not physically) this is rediculously unhealthy. Please help me find the desire to walk away

I've been EXACTLY where you are, OP. It took us to basically trying to destroy each others lives until we finally went NC. I do wish it hadn't ended like that, but since he disappeared from my life I am sooo much happier. Don't let it get to that point, walk away now. In a few months you will look back and wonder why you were ever even bothered. The first few weeks are torture, it's like a drug addiction. But you can do this

Block and delete. Go on other dates.
Learn to love yourself.

I think you just need to believe n yourself....its really as simple as that OP! If you took some time to really really look at yourself and how capable, desirable, wonderful, gorgeous your truly, truly are, you'd jettison this twat of an apology for a partner without a second glance. The Americans have it right compared with us Brits....YOU ARE GORGEOUS!!! and you deserve far more than is currently out there.

I love my husband, but remaining his wife is affecting my sanity. He uses alcohol to cope with mental health problems and is unemployed, but is starting to volunteer and consider looking for work.

I want him to get better, but not at the expense of my own mental health and pay check. Anyone else been in a similar situation?

Sheesh, meant to start a new thread not post on yours. Sorry about that.

Btw, do yourself and him a favour and end it now. And yes, maybe I need to take my own advice.

Omg OP I could have written this post myself! I know I need to avoid and go NC with "my" dickhead, but have never seemed to be able to. Nearly 4 years later and we are slowly destroying each other. I don't know how to walk away either