My ex and I were together for four years, I'm now 22 and he's 25. We broke up almost three months ago because I raised my concerns about our future if he didn't make some changes to his finances/career. He's worked at a cheap chain pub for five years now, says he hates it but only started apply to jobs in February and had only applied for 5 by the time we broke up. He is constantly spending the very little money he has and so it's a constant financial struggle for him but would always complain we hadn't moved in together yet and he never has money for things and we'd very rarely go out. When I spoke to him about it it wasn't meant as an ultimatum or a break up I was just hoping it'd set a bit of a fire beneath him. A week later he dumped me.
I was doing alright with everything, cried my eyes out for a few weeks but was starting to pick myself up again when three weeks ago he texted me that we needed to meet up. He's got a girl pregnant, and not just any girl it's the girl that I didn't need to worry about, who had told him a year ago she liked him while she was in a relationship herself but he brushed my worries off. He said that as she had an ectopic last year and she believes this is her only chance at a family and so is keeping it and he is standing by her.
Again I cried my eyes out and finally today felt like things were going to get better when I got a notification on Facebook for a mutual friends birthday. I'd love to go but it's being hosted at the pub they both work at, I checked the invitation list and they're both invited. I saw she'd changed her profile picture and that he'd liked it and it's just torn me right down again.
I know I shouldn't have looked but I couldn't help it and I just can't stand feeling so worthless like this all the time. I know it will pass but right now everything is just so hard and I feel so betrayed. I don't really know why I'm posting this I guess I could just do with some advice.