Need some advice please on a really bad break up. I’m very much in love with a person I have been with two years. We shared some amazing times together and also some really terrible ones. He was very flirty and a huge manipulative liar at times and I did catch some terrible disrespectful things to me which sent me over the edge . I didn’t really forgive him and we argued and it got worse and worse. I felt like he hadn’t been trying for months and I became a shell of myself . It ended with a nasty break up and it publically broadcasted . He had done some terrible things to not only me but other people and I felt I was being abused and had a 30 minute melt down telling people publically . 4 weeks today this happened . I couldn’t eat sleep I sent five messages over the weeks pouring my heart out about how I felt and what mistakes we made and about genuine love . I felt he wanted an escape to leave and go off with other woman . I begged in my messages that if he did I could never get back together and if he needed space to just say. He did message me once to say ‘we wernt making each other happy and he did love me and he was absolutely not entertaining other people . I messaged back saying I couldn’t and wouldn’t even do that because I loved him. I messaged last Wednesday to basically plead again saying I wanted to see him and have a face to face talk and say how sorry ‘I was ‘ . Even though he had caused most of the break up. My bad temper and my melt down has made me blame myself . He replied only ‘I’m sorry I wish I could but I’m not even ready to contemplate talking about this. It will have to be another time .
So I went through more agonising days waiting.
I noticed on Twitter a lad had plastered his girlfriend had cheated on him Saturday and Sunday. Monday my ex messaged me saying ‘he needed to tell me someotninf before it came from someone else and he had slept with someone (named the girl ) he regretted it and he wanted to talk this week but this may change everything . He said he was devasted and just said ‘again , I’m so very sorry words cannot even explain’ . I broke down and I cried . (It was that lad on twitters girlfriend) . He only came clean because he got found out and I would find out being publically broadcasted . So last weekend he slept with her Friday night and went out Saturday again wit his mates and had a great time but because this was all on twitter for show Sunday he sends me a message saying how sorry he is. I have not replied . I usually show how upset I am but now I feel sick. Is he just embarrassed ? Is he trying to make out he’s doing the ‘decent’ thing by telling me? Did he want a reply of even a little upset and hurt from me ? If he was genuinely sorry I would know. I have not replied and he has not messaged me since dropping this bombshell on me Monday. I showed complete remorse for them three weeks pouring my heart out over something that isn’t even as bad as this . And he’s gone and proved who he is. Iv been told he’s dug his own grave but I don’t even know if he has a conscience . I don’t know why he text me . Will he regret how he’s mistreated me so badly when he knew I loved him and tried reasoning with him. I am certain he was punishing me for weeks and there will have been other girls and this one has come out and he’s embarrassed and so he thought he would pretend to Be honest ‘because he respected me’ apparently. The thought of him being with someone else makes me sick. I didn’t want to lose him and yet he’s quite happy to lose me. A part of me is thinking he doesn’t think he will and I will text him upset like I have. Please can someone tell me if people like this get their own karma. Iv lost a stone and been so ill crying over this. I loved him and I feel so betrayed . He’s been going round the town behaving like an utter creep. He knows I wouldn’t go off with people like that. Sorry for the long post put if anyone has any stories of people getting karma for the way they treat others and any insight into my exes mindset it would put mine at rest. Was that it? Drop that bombshell text and that it after 2 years. Xx