I have no positive feelings about admitting this used to be a royal prick minus the royal to my now ex partner and treated em like they were over reacting because in my head, since I was very very young, inexperienced and thought momma knew best, that's exactly what it was to me. It wasn't until I stayed clean that I saw what I had done for what it was. I know I can never "fix it" but I feel like I cant stop trying. I am even more in love with my ex than ever since I can think clearly but I realize I've done a lot of harm. I really have changed, but also being abused mentally I can attempt to imagine how hard it is for her to even talk to me since we have child together. Their safety and happiness are my priorities. All I want is to be our child's dad, and to show my ex that she will never have anything to fear from me again. Yes I am not the brightest by any means but there are virtually no limits(with the exception of causing harm or ill will in any way at all to any living being) to what I am open to doing to help them heal, if that's what's best. The only thing I am not going to do, or at least the last thing, is to leave out of my kid's life. I'm new on here and desperately need real advice.