I am bereft. Lost. My marriage is stumbling to the end and I am not even married 8 years. In hindsight it was rarely a good marriage. Two very strong characters rarely make good bedfellows. I was so happy to meet someone later in life that I didn’t look at the flaws, swept up in emotion and delight that I had found someone. We stumbled along with some highs and unfortunately many lows. Recently my husband has been made redundant and has decided to take time off, do things that I can’t comprehend – nothing illegal or immoral but just not suitable for someone who doesn’t have a job and is not doing anything about looking for a job. He took out a significant loan in my name to buy an executive car and won’t listen to my reasoning about not spending so much in light of lack of job. He is supposed to be minding the children during school holidays but hasn’t provided one healthy or nutritious meal in the time. He’s told me that he is done with me controlling and that he is just doing his own thing – this includes learning new things and training for quite a big race.
Last Friday he said he was leaving me when I am at work and have 2 children to mind. Told me to sort it out. I have no money – overdraft at the limit – I can’t afford to pay for someone to mind the children. He has significant funds from redundancy but is not prepared to pay.
He said he would give counselling a try. I really really want to give my marriage one last shot. I want to look my children in the eye and say I did everything I could to keep the family together. We got a counselling appointment – last minute but we could have made it work but he said it was all too much.
Not sure what I am expecting – miracles? There are probably no miracles I know.
If anyone has any tips on what I should do? Plan? I would appreciate it. I don’t really want to be out in the open just yet but my brain is just bursting and I am not sure how to cope.