has anyone done it?
is it worth £12?
inspired by yet another post on here of, not exactly terrible, but creepy and inappropriate behaviour, and a woman not knowing how to respond to it, I reluctantly recognised myself. when it comes to others' situations, or sticking up for my kids, or in my friendships with my female friends, I am confident and assertive, and just seem to know what to say. when faced with pisspoor male behaviour irl though, I seem to have real problems. I am 42 ffs, and you SO wouldn't think it of me. nothing majorly major btw, just low level stuff.
fuck it, I'll nc and do some examples. so, separated from dp last year and have dated other people. one would ignore my boundaries quite a bit but always with this vague airy fairy 'oh I didn't mean it like that' kind of vibe. took me ages to boot him. embarrassingly long. another was fucking slimy and sleazy and bullshitty and I could see through him massively but again, it took me an embarrassingly long time (not as long as the other fella tho thank god) to assert myself and give him the heave ho. my ex, meanwhile, regularly hacks my shit, been through all my whatsapps etc, often comes round and calls me a slag etc, or tries it on with me for a shag. sometimes he succeeds. I'm not proud.
I need to sort my shit out. what is wrong with me? I'm embarrassed for myself and I want to be a good example to my kids. my dd is coming up 12 and although I tell her all the time she doesn't have to take any shit off men or anyone else, I know to my utter horror that my actions tell another story. (for my children did not know about either of the men I was seeing since splitting with their dad, and ex and I try and have a cordial and amicable relationship, doing stuff together as a family still and so forth - but they do know we still argue sometimes)
sorry, this was meant to be a 'is the online freedom course worth the money' type thing, and it turned into a right fucking brain plop.