Will I stay like this?

[moonandmountains]

Three days ago the love of my life abruptly ended our long term relationship, he left with all his stuff and I've not heard from him since. There was no big fight, no warning and no communication. He's just simply walked out on me and our two dogs and left all three of us in shock.

I haven't contacted him at all because I feel it will only hurt me further. I haven't eaten in three days and I can't go into our bedroom so not getting much sleep either. I find myself walking the dogs aimlessly for hours past midnight. I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that won't go away and I am spending hours worrying about how my dogs will cope (they adored their dad to no end) and I feel so heartbroken for them whilst they sit by the window waiting for him.

I'm worried I will stay stuck in this weird unsettled feeling where I'm hyper aware of the silence in the house, and all the little reminders of ex DP. Our routine has gone now and I don't know how to find a new one. My dogs are looking after me and I am doing my best to make things normal for them but everything just seems so surreal and odd without the person who was the centre of our world around.

Will I move out of this weird funk? Does the loud silence eventually become normal? Will my dogs be ok? Will I ever want to eat again?

I feel like I'm coping ok, I'm not crying or desperately begging him to come back, but my whole being feels so off and so sad.

Please tell me that me and my boys will find a way to be happy again

Moon I can't comment on your relationship but I lost oh recently. Glad you have your dogs. I couldn't have coped without mine. Just take every day as it comes and don't try to do too much.
Put yourself first, try and eat something. I know how hard it is to motivate yourself to do it. If you're struggling please talk to someone.

@GreenEyedBlonde Thank you, I'm sorry you went through such a bad time you are giving me hope that I will get through it too...I am managing some more sips of a shake and I've taken some vitamins.

@HollyGibney I will keep reminding myself of that. I keep telling myself that I'll be ok, and I'm keeping busy with cleaning.

@justdontevenfuckingstart My dogs are my rock right now, lots of cuddles and lots of walking. I can tell they are wondering where dad is but the heat is making them sleep lots so they are distracted too.

I did venture into the bedroom but was overwhelmed with sadness and so I've had to remove my stuff fron there and put it in the spare room. I've closed the bedroom door and will go back in when I feel ready. For now my set up downstairs is my little sanctuary. I do feel like I will have to move homes though in the near future.

Moon - how are you doing? X