Is now the time to leave for good?

[HollyLM]

I posted on here a few weeks ago about issues me and my partner were having....

Basically, to sum it up - we have a 3 year old and we live in ‘his’ house. A few months ago he asked me to leave in temper and so here I am back at my mums. Of course he said he didn’t mean it and that he never does

We’ve had issues with him taking drugs in the past and Of course I cannot tolerate it at all and never will! And of course I will never allow my daughter to be anywhere near that!

During the time I’ve been at my mums I’ve discovered he’s had the odd occasion where he has taken something and also had escorts to the house - but of course he insists he only ‘chatted’ to them!

Struggling to rip the plaster off I’ve tried to fix this (how I don’t know) but he’s telling me that if I hadn’t had left and still be living at my mums he wouldn’t have done those things and so it’s all my fault?!

Why am I feeling guilty?!

By the way I KNOW I need to leave! It’s jjsg so emotionally difficult!

I’m 30 - can I find Mr Right and have the happily ever after I dream of? x

Get rid! Nobody just chats to escorts.
You seem like a switched on person.
You can't fix another person's bad attitude.
He takes drugs, that will end up family money being spent.
If you're struggling to rip the plaster off for yourself, do it for your child, they deserve one hell of a lot better in life.
You will find happiness, 30 is so young and, apparently, 30's are the new 20's

I remember you Holly. You disappeared. Sounds like nothings changed. I'm sorry but I really doubt it will change.
You feel guilty because he's making you feel guilty.
You already know what you gave to do

Have to. Not gave to. Sorry.

Consider this - if It’s jjsg so emotionally difficult! now - what will it be like in say another 3 years if you decide to stay but it doesn't work out - by then you're dc will be 6 yrs old and have started school. You will then have to deal with the issues of possibly uprooting him/her. You may even have had another child with this partner. Will mum have enough space for all of you? Prob like most mums - she'll try to accommodate you - but you may feel like you're overburdening her.
Also, time spent in bad relationships eat at your slowly eat at your confidence. As emotionally difficult as it is now - you probably will be feeling worse if you let it continue.
If when you weigh things up, you decide to cut your losses and move on now - you'll be 30 with 1 child. I can't guarantee that you'll find Mr Right - but I think you'll be happier in the long term if you're not staying with Mr Wrong who sounds manipulative and immature. Maybe in the next 3 years (if you're not already in your dream job) - you'll retrain and be on that pathway. In any event, I think you will feel better emotionally and be able to bring up your dc in a more emotionally-stable environment. You may then decide that your 'happy ever after' doesn't even depend on finding a man!
Best wishes for the future op

... I also have suspicions he’s involved in selling stuff aswell..

I’m riddled with anxiety and have a million questions running through my head!

* officially mentally and emotionally drained *