I'll try to keep it short. I am early 30's divorced after a short but unhappy marriage. After my marriage ended (I left) my ex husband moved on very quickly. in my vulnerable state I managed to be taken in by a violent, controlling narcissist. I managed to get myself out of that though it wasn't easy and after it ended up in Court I had to get counselling etc. Anyway I remained single for about a year and was quite happy that way but quite by accident met my ex. now he didn't treat me in anyway unkind while we were together and in fact just gave me a little faith that there are good men out there - however after an incident in his personal family life he called it quits and just shut me out his life. Now that hurt loads but we have since spoken and he has apologised. Anyway that was 5 months ago and I am feeling ready to meet someone so decided to give online dating a try. I have been chatting a lot to a man who seems genuine and lovely and we have a good laugh via messaging and he has asked me on a date this weekend to which I have agreed! I am looking forward to it but I am also a little anxious. It just feels such a big deal to go through the whole meeting someone for the first time and making conversation again, deciding if we are compatible. What if it leads somewhere first kiss etc again.....and I do have a constant niggling that what if it does go somewhere and I fall for him like I have done in the past then it goes t1ts up again? I feel like it is irrational but I do want to settle down and have a family and I have an insecurity about being let down again. I also feel like I can't keep letting people into my life and having them meet my family and friends just to walk out again. please tell me I am not alone in this worry? Andy advice, help reassurance would be great!