Hi
I need you to talk sense into me.
Tried to condense this as much as possible!
Until last weekend I'd been with my boyfriend for 10 months. I fell hard and fast! And so did he apparently.
Just after Xmas I found he'd been texting a woman he used to date. It was innocent stuff except him forgetting to mention I existed. I was very upset. I tried to forget about this and put it behind us and we have had some incredible times together.
Fast forward to a couple of weeks ago. We had an argument. I get very very upset and agitated. It's relevant to say I have mental health issues and have been trying to get help for 15 years. Anyway, he walked out for 5 days and totally ignored me. His reasoning was that he was making me worse (he wasn't) . I forgave that as I understand my problems can be hard to deal with and it's hard to know what to do for the best.
We had a week together when he came back. We both happened to be off work and so we spent time together, had days out and really talked. He told me he would be there for me during my long awaited appointment with the mental health team.
Then he goes to the pub with his mates one night and just doesn't come back. Blocks me on everything except to message to say I'm a burden - I'm really really not, it's the one thing I'm fearful of and am loathe to ask for help because of it. So that was a cruel thing to say. I went to my appointment and have been told I likely have borderline personality disorder.
I'm dealing with such a lot this week. I'm frightened. I should be dealing with myself abd my potential diagnosis but my heart is breaking. I feel like I'm going crazy but I'm so disappointed to be let down again. I'm very sad and despite all the other support I have, i just want him. I cannot stop crying and I feel utterly broken and pathetic.
He's not worth chasing is he? I'll get over this right?