My DD(22) wants to move abroad.
She’s in the sort of job where she can do so easily and so is her boyfriend.
I’m really, genuinely pleased for her. I’ve been encouraging and made the right noises. I would sacrifice anything for what she wants, always would.
But there’s this horrible selfish part of me that’s scared about what the implication of this might be for me. I will miss her so much. And if she makes a new life and I have in effect grandchildren and so on in another country ... I also have a son who has special needs. He’s so hard to live with. The idea of just me and him for endless however many days stretched out in front of me makes me feel so anxious and panicked I feel a bit ill with it. He is very anxious and I think I ‘catch’ It in a strange way.
I haven’t felt like myself for ages, sorry if I sound horrible.