There's no point in dissecting the relationship on here as I have done so to death in my own head and friends heads and random people heads for weeks. I'm sick of talking about him and what he's feeling/thinking/doing.
But is it normal to go from having an over this, done with him attitude blasting out single lady anthems (highly recommend Lizzo- Good as hell) and looking forward to meeting someone new, to your heart actually hurting and anxiety attacks that we are over???
On top of that there are times when I'm switched off and just not thinking about anything really that I have this overwhelming peace that we are going to be okay and that it will work out. Then the next second when I've acknowledged that feeling, or that notion I don't know what to call it, but once I notice it I feel complete despair that it's not okay right now.
I want to stay positive but I'm finding it so hard, it took me so long to meet someone like him that I had a genuine connection with and it happened without me pushing or pursuing it that I worry I'll never find it with anyone else. I don't want my pain to consume me but I fear it is, I hate feeling this way and I'm aware it's very pathetic but I don't know how to stop it.
Is this normal? I want to see the light but I'm finding it really hard to make peace.