I'm married to a really good man. He's a great dad. He's funny and generous and supportive and clever. I adore him in many ways.
I know I should thank my lucky stars, and look to all the good things, but instead I find myself - fourteen years in - restless and frustrated more often than I'd like. I want some spontaneity! I want him to plan some things for us without me nagging. I do all of our life's admin, all the stuff that I want to do, I have to organise.
I have told him about this but nothing changes.
In short, I want...newness. If that makes sense.
I find this desire festers in me, which is partly my personality (I'm pretty driven to do new things, keep moving forward, keep changing things up) and partly the reality of a longterm relationship.
I don't really know what I'm saying, but I suspect I'm not alone.