My (ex?) Partner became depressed around four months ago. Everything seemed fine one second then the next he left me. He said this is something he must get through himself and that I cant help him. Nobody can.
He tells me he is hollow inside. Dead inside. Is unable to feel anything for anything or anyone, including me.
We have stayed in contact. Around a few times per week. And last week I cracked and asked him outright if he loved me anymore or not. He said he has no idea. I asked him if he wanted me to wait around until he gets a bit better and he says its up to me and he wouldnt want to give me false hope or to lead me on. Says he has this urge to push everyone away including me.
Then he will say things like if he hadnt got depression we would still be together. That he was happy with me before. That he loved me when he was not ill.
I have no idea if it is the depression talking or him.
For the record I am willing to wait but at the moment it seems like I have nothing to hold on to. We have been together for 20 years and we are now currently living apart.
Are the things he is saying usual with depression?