Advice Please

[Candymvw]

Hi Everyone

So today is my doctors appointment and im looking forward to it. (almost 13 weeks into the pregnancy) Im also a bit sad as my babies father cheated on me. He has been horrible and i decided to block him from all portals of social network.

I tried including him but realized it just was not worth the hassles and drama anymore so i stopped communicating with him. He has done nothing but constantly fight with me.

I been dealing with the emotions and I have been fine, but then about an hour ago sadness just hit me. I read thru the last convo we had (text) and my mind is shocked at the person he has shown me to be. But I feel like im crazy!! How can you love someone who has treated you so bad and how do you just walk away???

My mind tells me walking away is for the best for the sake of my baby and I... But why do i still feel this way. Some days are ok, and im happy. But the i have days like today when an overwhelming sense of sadness hits.

He wants to be there for the baby. But im more of an actions speak louder then words kinda girl. (or at least i thought i was)
But up util now he has not done anything for the baby while i have almost completed getting everything a baby could need (I think)

He cheated on me after we found out i was expecting... And even after we separated, he seemed so excited.
But after the fight about a week ago i just gave up...

My mind still questions though if he will come back or even thinks about us?
Im not this weak person - but why do i even feel this way about a man who could do the things he has done?

After the argument we had he blocked me. Because i was causing drama by telling him that I needed help to pick up things that i bought from the store.... (crib and changing table etc for nursery)

I lost my patience and told him that i needed him to not talk to me in the way he did as it was disrespectful and aggressive and i would not allow the disrespect anymore. I explained to him that we needed to start communicating effectively, and we needed to be civil. He kept on then calling me "mrs perfect" and called me names saying that i was just a horriblegf even though he kept on telling all his family and friends how wonderful i was and how crazy inlove he was with me.
He was just really derogatory even though i have always tried being nice to him so that he could see how i treated him and hoped he would treat me with the same respect i did him.

Thats when i had enough and blocked him from contacting me. I realised he unblocked me from whatsapp but i kept him blocked

Why would he unblock me though??? is it to cause more fights. Im just tired of always taking the high road.... I hope he would change and i pray for him all the time... but i cant do this anymore!!

Because he's trying to mess with your head and control you.

Just because you can't instantaneously switch off loving someone once they reveal themselves to be an abusive arsehole, doesn't mean you have to put up with them mistreating you. You can't love someone out of mistreating you.

You've said yourself he doesn't respect you. That won't change, although don't be surprised if he makes promises and threats and tries to switch it around on you.

You have decided you deserve better than to be with someone who mistreats you and has no respect for you. That's all you really need to keep reminding yourself right now. Be glad he revealed his true colours.