I try to stay pretty upbeat generally but today I feel really blue :(
In the last 12 months the following things have happened:
- I got disowned by my family for finally speaking up about the years of abuse I suffered in childhood. They spread rumours that I was having a mental breakdown and didn't know truth from reality, even though I had proof of what had happened.
- I reported a historic sexual assault to the police. Their response was to not investigate it properly, essentially tell me it was my own fault then when I complained pretended that they had done things that they hadn't. I am now having my complaint re-investigated. I've had 8 months of hell with this while the person who assaulted me had a quick interview and was let off without charge 4 weeks later.
- One of my closest friends disclosed that she is in a DV relationship. He rapes her every night. She won't leave him.
- Another close friend had a heart attack at the weekend and now won't be able to go back to the job they love.
- My other very close and most local friend has had a financial crisis and her and the family will be relocating to Europe within the next few weeks for DH's work. She is one of my main emotional and practical supports. Our DC are best friends. They'll be gone by the end of summer.
- My oldest and best friend is trapped in a marriage she wants to leave but can't because he has threatened to take the DC off her and - unlike most wankers who threaten this - he has the means to do this as he is a barrister with lots of Family Law Barrister friends.
I am so sick and tired and fed up of everything being absolutely shit for me and everybody I love.