After a good few years of soul searching I’ve finally drummed up the courage to tell DH that I think we’re over. I have agreed to relationship counselling but I’m pretty sure my mind is made up. He was lovely asked what he needed to change to make me love him again. TBH there are things in the past that he did that were pretty shitty and I didn’t identify them at the time, just felt like my feelings and opinion were irrelevant to what he wanted to do. I think it’s just mounted into big resentment and I can’t let it go even though he is now more supportive since I’ve had mental health problems.
TBH I think they’re in part due to my dithering. I thought I would feel relieved to have finally told him but I feel nothing. Not really asking for advice, just want to write this down. I’m in the spare room for the foreseeable from tonight. I don’t think he really feels like it’s going to happen and I suppose I can’t draw a line under it until the counselling is over. I think I probably going through the motions to be able to tell family that we gave counselling a go. Maybe I’m wrong and and it’ll work a miracle.. goodnight all.