Basically that!!! How do I move on from a guy who has dominated my life for the past 20 years!?
I sound so pathetic. I’m a fully grown adult with a responsible job 
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I met this guy through work 20 years ago, INSTANT attraction, never got it together as we were both in relationships. Fast forward a few years and we used to have a kiss and a fumble (not really sure how else to describe it!!) every now and again. I hasten to add this was whilst I WASNT in a relationship. He’s been on and off with the same woman for around 25 year! They have a son who’s 16. On and off like a tap they are. However he has made a big move away and bought his own house. But he still is tied to her emotionally! We have ‘tried’ to make a go of things so many times. I adore him (yes I know I sound woeful!!!). We get together, then......... nothing?
I am so attracted to him, I don’t know why? Yes he’s really good looking, but when we get together he struggles to keep an erection so I don’t honestly think we’ve actually had full intercourse (TMI 😂).
So why the hell am I wasting my life obsessing over him?!!!
I’m not looking for sarcastic replies! I need a good harsh ‘back to reality’ response! My self esteem is low at best, I feel he’s way out my league? Maybe that’s it? Christ I don’t know? Can you tell I’ve had a couple of vodkas! 😂. Saw him last night, had a lovely kiss and cuddle, nothing more. He texted first thing, now nothing and I’m yet again in that self destructing cycle!!!!