Can’t cope with DH’s bipolar.

[oneburgerofham]

Just what the title says really. He’s having a bad time at the moment, which means that so am I.
I just want the man I married back, not this paranoid scary man who wants to kill him self.
I’m so tired but can’t relax for a second.
He’s been to A&E at the weekend and rang his crisis team a few times but he’s not considered high risk because he has a wife and family.
He’s just started new anti psychotics yesterday which will hopefully stop the voice that he gets. It’s just so tiring all the time.
And then I feel guilty because sometimes I feel so angry with him (I don’t tell him/show him obviously).
Sorry for the ramble, just wanted to get it out really.

I'm really sorry you're going through this but I don't have any advice. You sound like a wonderful wife and your husband should be very lucky to have you.

I have no experience with this sort of thing but perhaps a referral from your GP for some counselling or further medical treatment?

Maybe you could push and be more persistent with the crisis team.

It's good you came here to vent and get things off your chest

Wishing you the best x

OP you have my sympathies. I don't know what area you are in but overall around my way they are pretty good and will offer a bed if the patient feels they need it.

My DP had a psychotic break in October 2016. He took himself to the DR's as he knew something was wrong and was quickly sent to the crisis team. He got there before he was in their words 'floridly psychotic' but was offered a stay if he felt he needed it.

I actually had more problems with the meds than the psychosis. They do their job well but the man I knew was gone. Just a semi functioning zombie for a good 6 months.

In that time he came to realise that his job was disagreeing with his mental health on a huge scale and making paranoia worse.

He applied for a job in a totally unrelated sector and once fully vetted, he quit his meds (I would never advise this btw). But in his new job he flourished. He's already been promoted and is being offered all kinds of extra education to continue moving up within the company.

So while I don't really have anything that can help you right this second, can you look at any part of his daily life that might be making his problems worse?

I understand the feeling of not wanting to be a part of it any more. I googled for support until I pulled muscles. There isn't much for those of us that live with it

My view point is from the other side of the fence.

Just because the team doesn't deem him a high risk right now doesn't mean he still isn't. I had more suicidal thoughts when I started new medication.

Is it possible to also involve his family so you can have some time to yourself? Is your husband receiving any kind of therapy? Or could you afford private?

I would suggest contacting the Charity Maytree. Who offer short stays in a supportive environment.

www.maytree.org.uk

Thanks for your replies, I applaud you for making sense of my post!

We have no one for support unfortunately, his parents are both dead and my parents live far away.

I am certain he is still high risk for suicide, I am being so careful about what I say as I know the wrong word could send him even further down that road or even tip him over the edge.

He actually doesn’t work in the job that was high stress and contributed to his psychotic episode anymore, he left for a job that is much lower stress.

I think I’m the one making him worse. During his psychotic episode he was sexting Facebook friends and so I find it hard to trust him, sometimes I say the wrong thing.

Thanks for the maytree info orange, I’ll give it a look.

How are you doing ?