So I left my abusive partner at the start of the year, i vowed I would spend this year repairing myself
I feel a mess..my ex threw me and my lo out after moving in with him and giving up everything for our future. I had nothing. I spent all my savings on a new place to rent, furnish and now struggling to even survive monthly on working paying the bills and trying to be a good mum
Anyway I've agreed to a date and although everyone is telling to go for it, I'm so scared !
I've no confidence, I feel a mess
I do have that lonely feeling and when lo is in bed or at her dads I do feel sad
This guy I've never met but we've messaged a lot and I've told him a bit about my ex and he seems to understand
He also has kids and has a free weekend like me next weekend so I've said yes to meeting up
Shall I go? Even though I don't feel ready
Oh and also my ex who is blocked but only recently because we tried to be friends as he owes me money
I've decided that is not helping me move on so he's blocked
But I'm worried because he always said stuff like we will be together no matter what and he would never think I would meet someone else as he knew how much I loved him
I'm panicking right now, shall I leave this date ?