Met my boyfriend november 2016 but got with him in January 2017. A month into our relationship he asked me to stay round his house which was nearly everyday... ( eventually leading to moving in permantly). I was flustered and did so. I got pregnant 2 months after. April 2017. I was scared. (1st time pregnant). Up untill this time he was a nice person. We got on fairly well and liked that he owned his house and had his own business so young. I felt well surely he has his head screwed on and i wont have money worries as this was unplanned. Two months after that i had a misscarriage. He didnt seem to upset. He didnt even come with me to the hospital. I was devastated by what happened and felt so alone. But felt maybe he was trying to hide his feelings. Anyway... by this stage i couldnt stop thinking what my baby would have looked like etc. I wanted my baby back and therefore got pregnant again only 4 weeks later! . Funny thing is.. i never ever wanted kids. I wanted to do my career and move abroad. So when we first had sex (whic got me pregnant) i was insisting he wears a condom but he said no he belives it should be natural. Of course i bought the pill the following day but it failed obvioisly. Anyway during my 2nd pregnancy i was still working up untill week 33. I worked in london (where i used to live) and would drive back to his home everyday which totalled 120 miles a day. I was exhausted. I done all the cooking cleaning laundry. I occaaionally requested he wouldnt make so much mess as i was tired but told me cleanin is a normal daily part of life and i shouldnt moan as i aint the one paying the bills and his mortgage. He was slowly putting me down without me realising. I was a meat eater but wasnt allowesd to eat in infront of him or bring in the house and he turned vegetarian and would call me an animal killer. I wasnt allowed to be the faith that i was and would tell me i dont have a religion. He would tell me to be careful wjat i eat so i dont get fat. Told me because im from this origin i wouldnt understand certain jokes althoigh i am born in the uk like he is. Told me i was lucky to have him and would boast how good looking he was and how so many girls wanted him . Told me im thick stupid naive. Uses my past against me alot. Tells me i cant cook when i try. Never took me out so on his birthday i splashed out and bought him tickets abroad as je never went away before and while we was out there i couldnt wait to get back. He never makes me feel special ever. So here comes baby... she was born poorly. (Swollowed her mecomium) and was tranzferred to special care for over a week. I had to have an emergency section and couldnt walk for days so i couldnt visit baby as she had to go 2 another hospital. I only saw my bf twice while i was in hosp. I asked him for a kfc once baby came back to me and i finally felt like eating and he said just eat the hospital food its alright. Talk abou caring. Baby suffered colic when she got home and bein a first time mum and only carer i was going mart. Baby never slept once. I was sp exhausted. She is 7 weeks today and to this day he hasnt once changed her nappy or fed her or nothing. All he does he buy her milk and nappies and says his job is to provide whch he claims his doing. Im in some mina credit card debt of 1500. From buyinh his holiday tickets and spending on his vday present (i got nothing back) . He earns well and has recirved a £500K lump sum recently only to buy himself a new flash car. A gym room new clothes. A holiday for his dad. I have 5 pounds left and wont get my next maternity pay till 2weeks timw which is only statory pay. 140£ a week. My phone bill is paid and a couple other direct debits and petrol costs then my money is all gone. I even manage to spend abit on baby clothes. To think he could easy pay off my credit card which i cant pay due to interest charges. I also had to give up my financed car which i only had a few grand left on becUse i cant afford it. Mymum supprts me by taking care of baby once a week. Otherwise i would be depressed. I havemt met my boyfriends family yet. I feel i dont know him. He is annoyed tge house is messy and i dont cook because i litirally have to look after this consistently crying baby. I rarely even shower daily. I even lopked through his phone and found out he was cheating on me in the first 4 months of our relationship. I feel so devalued. I put him on the birth cert so i feel i cant even run away