Iv finally ended my abusive relationship. It was very emotionally and financially abusive with lots of nasty and hurtful things said to me and constantly walking on egg shells. If I didn't give him what he wanted then all hell would break loose. He wasn't helpful as a father and felt like he shouldn't have to do anything and if he did it was like he was doing me a favour. He uses cannabis daily and said he'd never give this up but it was a massive financial strain and his main priority I felt was that. After another episode of name calling and vile behaviour Iv ended the relationship and I feel confident this is my end point. It's been building for a long time but I can't cope with it any longer.
I almost feel like I'm grieving for a person that never was. I always tried to see the better and try to help him be different but I now realise that this is just who he is as a person. I'm not sure what to do with myself I have so many emotions right now.
He's already causing issues about maintenance and contact for our son and I feel like even though Iv ended the relationship to get away from all this, it's still going to continue as he's always going to be in my life due to us having a child.
How do I get through this as I feel so lonely already and find myself missing him even though when he was here he was 90% awful.