Dh and I have been married 5 years. We used to work at the same place, that's how we met. We no longer work together, but I am familiar with how things run at the company.
A few weeks ago I was using his computer, getting something from his email. I noticed a few emails back and forth between him and the receptionist. A few from her asking for mentoring and advice on things, where there was obviously face to face conversation that led to the emails. They have nothing in common work wise and she's doesn't do his admin or anything. The last one from her was a birthday invitation. To be fair in the invite she does say partners are welcome, but she's also made it clear she hasn't invited the whole office.
I asked him about it and he got very defensive and said he hasn't done anything wrong, basically he wasn't nice or reassuring about it the way I thought he would be. I have always trusted him without doubt. But I feel off about this.
I used his phone tonight to make a call and I saw in his contact that's he's saved her home email address. Why on earth would he do that?
I'm not even sure I think he's cheating. Maybe just enjoying attention from someone young and attractive. But it's put him in a different light to me and I feel gross. I feel humiliated. I know it doesn't seem like much and I'm prepared to be told I'm over reacting.
I don't know what to do. I expect if I ask him about this again he'll just get angry. He said last time that he wasn't sure our relationship was going to survive as we'd been fighting a bit recently, and I felt like I couldn't really get to the bottom of this without feeling like the relationship was on edge. Maybe I just do have to let the relationship end? I don't know if I trust him now and the unwillingness to talk makes me feel like I have no choice. Am I just being paranoid?