How do I say sorry for being an absolute nightmare?

[FranticallyPeaceful]

Hi everyone,
I recently gave birth, so my hormones are now levelling out somewhat and I’m suddenly hyper aware of how much of an absolute Grand wizard in cuntery I’ve been during pregnancy. I feel like I’m waking up out of a trance ive been in for the last 9 months and I feel awful! My DP has put up with me being an absolute monster. I’ve been unreasonable, bitchy, and just down right mean most days. The things I’ve said I was nothing short of cruel.
I can’t believe he’s still here supporting me and loving me because honestly, I’d have left me.

I’ve said sorry and he said “it doesn’t matter, look at what we got out of it” and kissed our baby. But.. it does matter to me. I honestly feel rotten about it. There is no excuse in the world for how I’ve treated him,I just can’t believe I never noticed at the time... I always thought I was perfectly reasonable throughout the whole pregnancy. Absolute insanity looking back now.

Is there anything I can do to show him? I really don’t have a clue and words are falling short of how sorry I really am.

Maybe plan a surprise romantic meal for him (if you're feeling up to it) and buy him a gift to say thank you for his support?

I went through something similar when I was grieving a late loss. The saying re hurting the ones that love you most springs to mind re how I was with my husband and I too am thoroughly ashamed of what a bitch I was at times. He was great and we're good now, but all I can say is from my experience actions probably speak louder than words as anyone can apologise. Good luck

I'd also wait a few weeks

You've apologised.

But you're in a haze of new emotions and new hormones. So don't be too sure you're reading this entirely correctly.

Been through this myself with my missus.

Believe me we know it wasn't intentional and was because of the hormones!

As he says it's fully worth it for the outcome :)