I just feel like there is a fog in my head at the moment and I can't think straight. I go from wanting to be on my own to wanting to stay. Currently 23 weeks pregnant so I'm also tired and emotional.
My dp was made redundant a couple of months ago and since then he's also been in poor health. He's currently off sick. I honestly thought he would walk straight in to a new job. I'm not currently working either (was a SAHM to our toddler), so obviously money is tight at the moment. We had no money problems before he lost his job.
We are constantly falling out at the moment and I'm tired of it. I get he isn't well and I'm doing my best to support him but I'm also running after our children, getting them to and from school/nursery, doing housework, going to appointments, budgeting and getting stressed etc.. and I'm exhausted.
He is still paying maintenance to his ex which he asked if he could pay a few days late. His ex said no and then sent ME and long ranty message about how stupid I am having another baby when I can't afford it. The thing is, we can afford it in normal circumstances. But at the moment things are just shit and circumstances have changed a lot.
I have always been friendly and amicable with his ex and there has never been any problems between us. But now I just feel like telling her to fuck off and do not contact me again. She kept saying her child will be affected and that me having another baby becomes her business if her child is affected. The baby isn't the problem because when we planned this baby he was in a job. We are all affected as a family by his loss of earnings. The baby is not the problem but that's who she is focusing her frustration on and it's really pissed me off and upset me. I almost think she is jealous with the way she has been going on.
All I want to do is pack me and my children up, move out and not deal with any more drama. I'm getting crap from both my dp and his ex at the moment and I just want to tell them both to leave me alone.
What do I do?!