So you may have read some of my previous posts about my DO. Lots of him rejecting me, putting me last, etc etc......
He is a narcissist I've realised and completely love bombed me the beginning and then asked me to marry him and 6 days later went NC out the blue, blocked me and dumped me for his ex. He saw her for 2 weeks and during that two weeks thete was a web of lies and deceit, he then came crawling back to me and I'm afraid I took him back.... so anyone who has been bowled over by a narcissist will know, they make you feel like yiur relationship is out of this world and that you've finally found your soulmate.
Anyway, I married him and our relationship has been up and down and considerably more down as time has gone on. We don't live together and in true narcissist style he then started to ignore, reject and abuse me (emotionally and verbally and almost physically).
Fast forward to yesterday....
He had an email from the ex also g if he'd been looking at her linkedin account..
Today at 4.45pm he had numerous messages with his ex... the one he dumped me for and recently connected with ... and among the messages he says he's been looking on her linkedin account "yes it was me, as curiosity killed the cat as they say!!" COMPLETE FLIRTING AND WAY TO OPEN UP COMMUNICATION
He theh said "I know I've made some bad choices" MEANING ME (funnily enough he made that same speech to me when he's dumped me and didn't want her anymore!
And he said he's really glad she's ok, really glad apparently..
He's deleted them permantly out his email but luckily I screen shot all of them.
He's now changed his linkedin password and work password (which he VOLUNTARILY gave to me due to his previous cheating) and has lied through his teeth as I haven't let on I know yet and been loving and normal and he's clearly been emailing her all night last night whilst planning our "lovely weekend this bank holiday and telling me he loves me!
So finally I am strong enough and this is the straw that broke the camel's back..
Please don't judge that I haven't left yet..... it's very hard and you always think "if only I just wait or if I only I try a bit harder then he'll go back to being loving and amazing
So I walk to walk away with him knowing what he's lost.
Do you think showing him the screen shots in person is the way to go? I really want him to know he's proved everything I've said right...... only a few hours ago he was saying "I have never messaged anyone especially her and never will. I love you too much to ever hurt you again"
Fucking liar.
And how do i stop from being hurt? As this is still hurtful and I don't want to get rose tinted glasses again and think his shit, disgusting, cheating ways are acceptable?