Namechanged but a longstanding poster. A bit embarassed that Im freaking and would like some perspective please.
Split from ex last year, his decision. It was a sad time but we'd been having problems. Together over a decade. My two Ds's were his stepsons.
Problems were that I was resentful because it all had to be his way otherwise he wouldnt participate. Not healthy.
We've been talking and after months of airing things out have said that we will date each other with a view to seeing if things can be different or if were just not suited.
Monday night he came over to the house, first time since last year. We watched a movie, it was late, I said he could stay over (Ive missed snuggles with him). We just cuddled over night and in the morning slept together or half had sex.
He got out of breadth, needed a glass of water and then said he needed to go had a busy day.
My insecurities have stepped in. Did he suddenly think 'what am i doing, i need to get out of here', was it not enjoyable etc...the usual rubbish.
Over the day those niggles got worse and I hadnt heard from him so messaged and said...'maybe it was too soon and given how Im freaking out...that Im clearly not ready to jump into bed again, as much as I enjoyed it. Asked if thought the same for himself given how quick he rushed off'
he said replyed, 'No...just a busy day and loves me'.
But Im still freaking out. Please help me understand why im freaking out and if its an insecurity thing or a sign that I shouldnt go back there'