I feel so alone

[Tlou]

I feel so alone.

I am Mum to a 9 month old baby girl. Who is my absolute world. She was a surprise baby, but the best surprise ever- as I didn't think I could have children.

My OH doesn't cope well with anything at all due to his upbringing. The first sign of stress and he walks away or doesn't speak to me.

On a day to day basis I get increasingly frustrated and angry as I feel like I'm speaking to a brick wall. He intentionally ignores me I'm sure of it.
There's no affection what so ever. Unless he's horny.
We have financial stress to, and I suffer with anxiety.
I have no family.

I don't know what to do anymore. I literally feel broken.

So sorry you feel like this. I’m in a similar position. Hubby didn’t want baby. I live far away from family. I am unsure as to whether our marriage will continue but the way I see it is I’m practically a single mum now anyway so no great loss.

Don’t let him ruin motherhood for you. They grow so fast and what I have been doing is just enjoying myself and baby without even thinking of him. We do classes some of them are cheap where I have met other mums. Or I just go for walks with baby and have a coffee while I read a magazine.

I used to feel lonely but I find baby is the best companion ever and if you try to enjoy baby you may no longer feel lonely.

Hope it works out xx

Do you have a Mum and toddler group to go to? Try to set an evening when your baby is asleep to have a conversation with your OH and without getting upset let him know how you feel. Or perhaps write him a letter. You do not have to have sex if you don't want to. Try to get out and about and smile at people even if you don't feel like it -it will help you to make friends.