I had an 8 year relationships with an ex whom I lived with. The relationship finished many years ago now and I met my now DH (to whom I'm very happily married) very soon afterwards. The relationship did finish mutually and there was no way at the time that I would have wanted the relationship to continue. He moved out of town soon after and I never saw him again or had any contact with him.
We had some such fantastic times together he was a great friend as well as my lover. A part of me still misses him to this day and somehow I had a closeness with him that, as much as I love my DH to bits, I don't know if I have now. I often think of him and remenisce about him with family (not in front of DH though!) From time to time he crops up in my dreams too. When he does, the dreams are never overtly sexual but are always very loving and feature us cuddling and I feel tremendously close to him. Sometimes the dreams can haunt me for the whole of the following day. It happened last night and today I have felt so much like I miss him.
He doesn't even live in this country now so the likelihood of bumping into him is remote. I do know he's married now too with a family of his own like me. I'd love to see him again and I always hope that I will. I always find myself wondering if he thinks about me too. I can't help thinking that if I do about him he must do about me from time to time too. After all, 8 years is a lot of shared memories and expereinces ( I was his first real serious girlfriend).
I don't even really understand why all this matters to me. I can only think that I met my DH so soon afterwards, and was catapulted into that relatioship which totally consumed me, that I didn't have the chance to deal with the break up of my previous relationship so unresolved stuff is still floating around in my subconscious
Does anyone else have fond thoughts about an ex/wonder about an ex for no real explicable reason despite having totally moved on and being happily married?
Sorry for the long ramble...