Yesterday we had a BBQ and my teenage DD had a friend over.
I’d been to the supermarket to get all the foods everyone likes and was really looking forward to sitting out in the sunshine with nice food and a glass of wine.
As it happens the mum of DD’s friend turned up early whilst we had just started eating so I offered her a glass of wine and picked at what I had on my plate as I was chatting to her.
After they left and whilst we were clearing away I commented to DH that I still felt hungry and was a bit embarrassed to sit there eating a full meal whilst the mum didn’t eat (she refused food as had her dinner in slow cooker).
DH turned to me and said ‘I saw you packing it away, you didn’t go short’ - and then listed what I had eaten (two slices of halloumi, a veggie sausage and Bread sticks with houmous).
I am a lot heavier than I used to be, probably half a stone overweight now, although I used to be over a stone lighter when we met, got married etc. I’m aware of my weight gain and know I don’t make good food choices but he makes me feel bad by subtle and not so subtle comments.
He’s very fit and due to me doing everything for the DC and dog, providing all of the childcare (he has youngest whilst I work on one morning at the weekend) he goes to the gym three times a week after work and has several keep fit hobbies which he swans off to.
Just feeling a bit low and fed up of him putting me down and wanted to share.
Need to lose weight but can’t find motivation and his monitoring is making me feel bad for eating so I’m sneaking food when he’s not looking!