So after a very up and down 7 yr marriage where we have split up without splitting up dozens of times this time looks like it's really it. We said 4 weeks ago we were splitting up but he's stayed in the house during the week (for his business) and stayed with friends over the weekend.
It's been horrendous.
I have tried NC but there have had to be some practical discussions. He's leaving today but rather than talk about the permanency of the situation he's just said " I thought I'd move out for a few weeks see how things are"
I've told him he's an arrogant fucker if he thinks he had all the power and control in this.
I'm in turns angry upset relieved. Feel like I'm living in limbo.
How do I force myself to accept this is it.
We still love each other but don't like each other. Really poor at communicating. Fault on both sides.
I'm exhausted by it all.
No one else involved and no DCs together. We both have older DCs from a previous relationship.
I've forgotten what it's like to be single and am both scared and relieved at the prospect.
I feel like I'm going crazy