This sounds stupid I know, I love dp, he's not perfect but he's a good man and I know he'll do anything for me. He's taken on my 2 children 12 and 14 and I have taken on his 2 children 12 and 13 and generally it is a happy house, but well I guess I moved to his town so I'm around his family and friends. My dad recently passed away, I lost my mum years ago and my only sister I'm not close to and she doesn't bother with me or my dcs. Dps mum is lovely but obviously she has more natural feelings for her own grandchildren, this week my dd has been doing exams, sometimes 3 a day and she's been worried because she's had 6 weeks off school after being diagnosed as coeliac, but there's no one concerned for her other than me, dp is but it's also obvious not the same as it is for his own dds. No one is bothered how my dd does or how she is I feel I deal with it on my own. My dsd is also taking exams this week, her nan on both sides and various other people have sent her good luck cards. I feel bad cos my dd gets nothing, I feel she only has me, she does see her dad but he's not very hands on.
My dp thinks he's offering me his family so I should be grateful, and although I am grateful it's just not the same as your own. My dad loved to listen to how well my 2 were doing and would listen to when they weren't doing well for whatever reason.
Dps brother is a bit odd with me sometimes and so are some of his friends. There seems to be some jealousy around, even his ex was jealous when I moved in with him after 3 years tried to turn her dcs against me it didn't work in the long run but for a short time they hated me. They've realised I'm not the person I was portrayed to be but I still can't forget about it all. My saving grace are my 2 dcs I'm very close to both my ds and my dd but I feel just me to them is not enough for them. Is it normal to feel like this?