Two years ago I moved my business into a new office block and within a few weeks started meeting with new business similar to my own. I don't know how it came about but a man who is a director of a similar business to my own started following me on various social media platforms. He started liking my photos and commenting on my content. I think it was this that was most flattering. Since 2016 I've been really conscious of this and then started think about him. When I passed him on the corridor my heart just skipped. We haven't actually talked much in person at all at this point. But I'd started trying to pass him more in corridors changing my lunch plans and walking round the building more. This has been going on for a year. He's just been in my head!
I've been in a relationship with my partner for 5 years and we have a 3.5 year old daughter. I've know for a while that we are not in love. He's a fab dad and a lovely person. We are just different people. I won't go too much into it. I thought we could work it out and for past 3 years I've been desperate to try and fall in love with him. We have a lovely life together holidays, nice house and car etc but I just think these have been a band aid and my infatuation with this other man has really made me realise that as it's got to hot in head over him I can't escape it. It's also highlighted how disinterested and different my partner is to me as this other guy is filling a huge gap.
I found out recently that the other man has a severely disabled wife with a fatal condition and I absolutely don't want to get involved because of that fact obviously. He recently been messaging me privately just about common interests absolutely no flirting and we've met a couple of events and I think since we've had more interactions it's really solidified my love for him, I have no idea if he feels the same way but I suspect he does.
I feel if I split up with my partner I should be on a quest to find someone i feel as besotted by as I currently do about this other guy. I feel I'd be more engaged in my daughter and happier to be single and not as trapped in a situation I'm not 100% happy in. Am I crazy? Is this a good plan? Please help I'm in a lot of turmoil.