I'm in limbo

[foreverday]

Can you really stay friends with an ex?

An ex that hurt you so much ?

Even though he wants to and promises he is going to make it better ?

Even though he's had chances before and nothing has changed ?

I feel better than I did - I left him a couple of months ago but as it ended so badly and I was really hurt, us being friends is it his way to worm his way back in?

Honestly I'm seeing it as a chance to see if he has - time will tell
We aren't back together but we've seen each other

Should I really be doing that if I do find I can forgive and forget ?

I'm in limbo...I thought I loved him
But I do care and I'm sad but I'm
Not sure it's enough
I feel I'm missing out by seeing how things go with him when actually I should be trying to move on?

Help

You just want to talk about your fucked up situation, don't you ?

Block him. Do not speak to him, do not see him. The advice is clear but it doesn't suit you.

Take it or leave it. The links give you more detail on how to actually achieve closure but that is not what you want, clearly.

Update

So....I am no longer in limbo....

I have blocked him from now everything
Apart from email which I know I can move to my spam
I get an email saying please call me so rather than type out an email saying leave me alone I called him and explained my reasons

He asked if I love him
I said I no longer love him and although that's a blatant lie it really seemed to work
He then emailed me an hour or so later saying am I really sure I don't love him and if I don't he will let me move on - I replied and said my love for him is gone, don't message me anymore and told myself I wouldn't reply
I've heard nothing since
He was saying something about how distant I've been, how he knows I won't ever stop talking about the past and was actually quite sarcastic on the phone to me

So....I probably should have done this when he kicked me out
But it's done now

I'm feeling proud of myself and hope to get rid of this anxiety and move on with my life after being in a verbally abusive relationship which has made me feel so low

In a few weeks you will be feeling so much better.

Did you look at baggage reclaim?
There’s loads on there to help you along.

Well done!

Yes I did then realised that I liked their post on Facebook a while ago so I often see posts pop

Oh I do hope so, it's been a long time coming