I have a very long term illness that began with my first pregnancy. I’m going to summerise as it would take me all day to tell the whole story. In all that time I have been an undiagnosed anomaly. I am a challenge because it is very up and down for me but to put things into perspective I can go a couple of weeks being like superwoman and then be plagued for weeks with multiple seizures a day and general ill health. Nobody knows why.
Anyways I had my meds changed and I was supposed to be going back home this weekend to see old friends. However on Friday I began having heart palpitations and shortness of breath and hallucinations. I had to go to hospital but after scanning me they found nothing. We forgot to cancel our father in law coming over to look after the dog so my bloke said he was still going home because he had tickets to the football. I must admit I felt pretty miffed but decided that perhaps a break from me would do him good ,so he went. My father in law had to leave me this morning as he had work.. my heart is all over the place and my arms are still numb. So I rang bloke to see when he is coming back. He tells me that he has made social plans and won’t be home till late- I’ll be alright I always am. He asked me if I can make food and I said no, I can’t even stand up. I told him I had a packet of buiscuits by the bed. I ended up hanging up on him because I felt upset.
He has supported me through years of bad health. Always been there for me. I know sometimes people deserve a break but these are new symptoms and I’d just been in hospital. I can’t stay conscious and my arms are numb and I keep hallucinating. Am I being unreasonable in my slight anger? I think most people would have left me by now but I just feel perhaps he has had enough. My hands keep going numb so I’ve had to write this very slowly.