Why am I so miserable all the time?

[GreySkiesAboveMe]

I'm a sahm with a loving supporting dh, 2 sc who are past the baby stage.
But I'm just so miserable and uninterested and tired all the time. My mood flicks to irritable or cross very quickly at supid things like someone beeping a horn at me.

The dc are lovely, and I play with them and I'm nice to them, but it only takes small things such as them arguing about a toy to put me in a foul mood.
Same with dh, he's generally patient and loving but as soon as he critisises me in any way, including stupid things like forgetting to wipe the table dry after I've cleaned it, I get very defensive and cross and upset.

I just seem to feel miserable most of the fucking time!

I have hobbies and spend lots of quality time with dh & dc.

I am very fortunate and shouldn't have anytjing to moan about. I don't get it at all!

I just feel worthless, like I'm not making any contribution at all. I don't financially, my dh is better with the dc than I am, the do stuff, eat stuff for him. I'm shit at keeping the house tidy. It's a never ending battle which gets me down even more.

Can you get bk to work?

You sound bored

I agree you need to work, even part time.

OP.
Maybe be you need some adult time and company.

It can be boring dealing with DC all day ,every day.

I always have to fight DS to change his nappy or get him ready for bed. He does those things for DP with very little fuss. Its so annoying!

Have you thought about going back to work? I agree with PP, it sounds like you're bored. Working would also be really good for your self esteem.

Hungry or tired.

Oh I would so love to go back to work! We do share finances, as in he sees me as equally entitled to his pay. But he works away offshore which limits my working hours to weekdays only due to lack of evening/weekend childcare. I'm just waiting for youngest to start schoom in Sept and then I will be starting a training course to help with work.

Lack of self esteem seems to make sense, I just feel like if I left, would anything be different!

It's just a few more months and you can get back to work.

I'm a shot housekeeper. I hate it. But unfortunately it came with the sahm territory. However, I'm really good at doing stuff with the kids and getting them doing sports, crafts, baking etc. And I'm a really good cook. When I think back to my childhood, my mum was a brilliant housekeeper but we had fun with my dad and did crafts and drawing with my gran. Then when I was older I DoD a lot more stuff with my mum.

So cut yourself a break. We each have our talents in life, so concentrate on what you're good at and enjoy and let your husband do the bits he's good at and e njoys

I’m not sure why having your working hours limited to weekdays is a problem? Obviously it means you’re not flexible but a huge amount of jobs are weekdays only.

Thanks cric I'm a much better parent when outside.

There's a lot of retail and care work near me frith which require weekend or shift work. I have little admin skill, but that will change when I start my course in Sept.