18 months on from finding out my H was cheating and the pain of what he did has subsided greatly. It’s still very much there but not in the way it hurt at the beginning. Last year was hell, spent going through the motions and battling through the rollercoaster of emotions. This year started well but I cant shake the feeling of being unfulfilled. I have 3 gorgeous DC, a nice home and a job I enjoy. But what I had for H has gone. He broke my heart so badly. I love and care for him but I’m swinging between those feelings and keeping our family together and then googling separation and thinking about what I’d do if I was on my own...like holidays I’d take and the dog we’d get (H doesn’t want one) I feel like I’m at a crossroads and have no idea what to do or how to feel. H and I bicker lots. He has changed hugely and our relationship is hard work, but then it always was, I just went with it. If we weren’t together I’ve no interest in finding someone else (at least not now) I literally swing between plans for us together as a family (extend our house, another baby) and then without him (the dog being a big one haha!) but I come back round to the fact that life is not black and white, marriage is not a walk in the park..could this be a phase? A knock on effect from the stress of the last couple of years?
Has anyone been in this limbo?