I still think of him, 4 years later

[AfterTheNightGrowsOld]

I haven't seen him for 4 years.

Dated him from the age of 13 to about 15.

I was completely besotted. Haven't felt that way about anyone again.

I'm happy and 'moved on' by 16 and was having a brilliant time but I still think of him a lot.

I'm 20 now, married with a DC.

How do I forget him completely?

It's ridiculous I love DH but no one gives me that 'butterfly' feeling like he did.

You’re 20 and don’t think you canfeel the same way about someone as when you were 13?

You’re 20 and already married Despite thinking of someone else. Why did you marry him? You’re far too young to settle.

You need tofocus on yourself.

NSEA I understand what you're saying but how can I just worry about myself? I'm married with a baby. This isn't just about me anymore

I married him because I love him and he's a brilliant person.

But, if I'm completely honest, never have I felt like I felt for this boy when I was a teenager

Perhaps teenage love is just more infatuated?

Hmm, I didn’t mean focus on yourself and ignore everything else. I mean stop focusing on the past (I should have just said that)

Why did you seperate. Where there valid reasons. Are you looking back through rose tinted glasses.

I think teenage love is definitely different.

I have a similar story to you OP, I met my first love at 13 we were together until 18. We split up as he felt too young to settle down. I moved on and met someone else and was married at 21, DC were born 2 yrs and 5 yrs later.
My marriage was a happy one mostly for the first 6-7 years, but I still thought of (and occasionally was in contact with that first love)
I'm now 32 and separated from XH. I'm still not over the first guy after 15 years. I've now accepted that it wasn't meant to work out with him, but I do still miss him.
I do think teenage love is different and as much as we miss that first relationship I also think we look back and miss who we were in those days, before we had so much responsibility, and life was still a big adventure/mystery.
I also think that because it's your first real experience of love/sex/heartbreak it is so much more intense because at the time it was all so new and unknown.