Feel worse than ever before

[dropsrainbow]

Hi peeps

I don't know what to do.
My partner and I split a month or so ago. I have a daughter from a previous marriage- he was close to her.
We split because my partner had mood swings. It just got to the stage where I didn't want to continue with someone who was in a mood. I stayed because he has had a hard life and I genuinely thought once I've left I'll feel better
I dont.
I'm lost, empty, sad. I'm trying my best to hold things together for my lo but honestly I am a struggling
I have friends I talk to but I just feel it's not enough
I'm lonely. So sad and I cannot shake it. I can't eat, I feel I have a nervous belly most the time.
I keep thinking be positive and things will be ok, but I also feel like I'm drowning.
I don't want this deep sad feeling anymore
I go to counselling which I've just started
I only moved out a month ago so I know it's early days but I can't seem to shake this feeling off
X

Sorry you are struggling. Give it time, a month isn't very long at all. Just take it one step at a time and focus on the fact you will be happy again in the future. I promise it will get easier xxx

Thank you
It's been almost a month actually so I know I should be doing that
Just very hard
And think I've been unhappy for a long time which is why it feels longer
Just feel like I'm just existing and not living a happy content life which is all I crave

As in I was unhappy before and now I've left I'm still unhappy
So feel might have well stayed as I find I'm missing the good bits
As he did have great side to him too
He's now begging me back. Saying he will change, is going to counselling also, so have just said I need to be on my own for now and heal and so does he, what happens in the future who knows
But my friends says that's giving him hope. But I don't think it is.
He did mess up, he admitted it, wants to put it right so rather than get back together I've said prove he wants to change
Actions speak louder than words
Lo knows we are friends so she seems happy so that's the main thing
But my friends are also saying delete block and get rid
They don't get how I'm feeling