Im a single mum, and have had a male best friend for a long time, for me there was always that extra spark there between us, but never thought it was reciprocated. He is brilliant and a really nice guy, he's been there for me through so much and me for him too, he makes me laugh constantly and brightens my life up, I love him.
Several weeks ago, we ended up kissing one night and one thing led to another, this has gone on ever since. I so want to be with this man and get the impression it's what he wants too...
The problem is he's in an awkward relationship place right now, he's seeing someone who is with someone else, this woman doesnt seem to be making any effort to get out of what she's in to be with my friend, and he's just been waiting for a long time now for her to do something so they can be together.
We talked about everything a few weeks ago, and he said he loves her but now he feels confused about me and just doesn't know what he wants anymore. I took a few days away from it all after that as I felt bad that I was possibly ruining what he already had, but since then we've become more and more like a couple, but he's still 'confused' about what he wants.
I really don't want to walk away, I feel so stupid, but we've always been so close that even a few days without talking to each other is torture for me, he's my best friend.
I think I just needed to write this down but any advice gratefully received. What the hell is the deal with this guy? Is he just taking what he can get because he can't be with this other woman right now, is he testing the waters with me before breaking it off with the other woman? I'm so confused! I really don't want to loose him, and it's hard to talk to him, he just likes to stick his head in the sand and just have a laugh instead, but I need answers!