Me and DP have been together for 2.5 years. We have lived together most of that too. We have over the last 18 months had so many problems with the house etc (broken boiler, leaky roof, suffering with no money to fix anything) and it has pushed us to breaking point and we have nearly split up over it but made it through.
DP has family that live elsewhere (can’t say as may be identifying) that we go to visit a few times a year. We have been recently and to my shock and horror obviously I have found myself having feelings for a family member of his. I know in my heart of hearts it’s wrong and it would never happen and obviously nothing has happened. I still love DP but am finding myself doubting whether that is enough if I have suddenly had feelings for somebody else??
DP and I have pretty much no sex life (not bothered really as I don’t have much interest in sex and never have), we were talking about TTC a while back but then some problems arose and I have now decided totally against having children after breaking my heart wanting them. I can’t see us getting married as DP seems to do anything he can to avoid the topic of marriage. I suffer badly with depression and I’m wondering whether it’s just that? As I have had a pretty bad time mental health wise over the last couple of months. I feel like I don’t even want to speak to DP about it as he is very busy with work and I don’t work.
Am I being selfish? I don’t know what to do. Does this happen to everyone? Is it the end?