I don’t want to give too much detail for fear of outing myself (OW has trolled me on here previously). I split up with my ex a few months ago and for some reason am really really struggling emotionally this week. I’m having his baby so my hormones are everywhere at the moment but I wondered whether it’s truly love, or, as others have suggested including my counsellor am I caught up in an abuse cycle and have a kind of Stockholm syndrome going on?
I should say that I had real difficulty in letting go of the OW but it wasn’t for trying. Unfortunately she made her presence known constantly trying to get in touch with my ex, running past our flat everyday in the hope of bumping into us and generally stalking my SM and then sending hate mail to him specifically about me. I had so much difficulty with it that he left me for her for a period of a few months and then came back on his hands and knees crying begging me for forgiveness.
The only solace I take in all of this, vindictive as it may be, is that I know It won’t last between them because her children are too much for him and after a few months he tires of her. This time is a little difficult because of the financial situation he finds himself in so he might buckle down for a little while longer.
His actions towards us both can only be described as abhorrent but still, I find myself navel gazing and wanting to snuggle up into his chest. He’s always been very good at comforting me.
Perhaps I’m having a particularly bad day but I can’t stop the feeling of wanting him back and to be part of our family.
Someone tell me this will get progressively easier? Sorry for he whinge!