ok not sure whether to do this, but feel very confused. Have been pretty damn miserable for oh a year now and have tried repeatedly to get out of this fug. Problem is now its settled into a black cloud and i keep wishing someone would airlift me out of this situation.
Relationship with dh is very strained and im finding it hard to see him the same way as i used to. I have been to see a gp incase of the big d but it will be ages before a counseller will be available. A large factor i think is lack of support with family all on other side of world and feel i can no longer talk to any friends about it as i have moaned toooo much.
My question is this. How do you know if this is a state of mind thing and will pass eventually or it is really all down to my greatest fear )which keeps me awake at night and gives me the panics) - is simple we're just not meant to be married to eachother.
i dont want this to be true btw. But im too scared to get pg again incase it makes it even harder on us. but do want another lo. thanks feel typing this but ive pretty much exhausted all avenues of help im getting tired of it too!
Did anyone have depression then found when it lifted all the stuff you hated about people, esp your dh just lifted too?
(prob should put this in the other section but cant quite bring myself to)